It has been a month since my last post and to be honest, that isn’t much of a surprise to me. I’ve always been so involved and willing to do something up until a few weeks or months later where I simply start to lose interest. But there are some things that spark my interest and obtain my ever elusive passion. These things have molded me to the person I am today and I couldn’t be more grateful for all of the literal blood, sweet and tears. It isn’t unknown that I have a great passion and desire to lead a martial arts lifestyle and to train physically; but even though I try, it seems that spiritual and mental practices always end up fizzling. From attempting to begin a journal or blog to daily meditation, I’ve essentially lost the will to perform consistently. Whenever I find something that sparks my interests, I often go to rather great lengths to study it and understand it better. The posts I make about martial arts and fitness are prime examples because I do my best to research arts and styles that I myself have never even participated in. But while I still do this with everything, for some reason I cannot bring myself to pursue anything other than the physical with such fervor.
Regardless of this lack of motivation, I am still here, still trying to do what I set out to do. While I love learning and knowledge, I believe physical endeavors remain passions because of the fact that it is seemingly easier to practice than the other two forms of life. But I am beginning to understand my own cycle of motivation and lack thereof for both. With this understanding comes my newfound ability to push out as much as I can before I need to turn away to refresh and even recover if necessary. It has come to my attention that to do this, I will have to break free of my comfort zone, to shatter my old self with the each new day and grow better. So for the next few weeks and hopefully few months I will attempt to post as much as possible. Along with this, I will once again try to incorporate meditation into my daily life as well as perhaps studying and researching fields that I would or could never find a career path in. I feel that this is one of the best ways if not the best way for me to become the best and brightest version of myself.
I feel like I have to reiterate not for those reading but to myself that all of this is for myself; to try to motivate, enlighten, and empower me. So although some of you may enjoy my material, I will only be posting for myself. Not only to continue my own journey of life but to also try to consistently push myself to push my limits and break my comfort zone for good.